My precious STEREO ! at my house in Bandar Country Homes. ):

I'm currently a clubber. Personal stereo clubber. I don't go out of the house, 'cause it's raining practically everyday, and most of the time, when I do go out, it is to go SHOPPING !!!!!! Aeon Jusco Rawang at Taman Anggun just outside is opening tomorrow, all our family members are going out there to SHOP and to WALK and to EAT EAT EAT !!!!!!!

I am looking for a job on the 29th of this month, at Aeon Jusco because it's near, whenever there's free time and I have petty cash, I will walk out there to watch a movie or go by car with Mom and spend her as we will be eating outside as well too. Mom and I had been anticipating about Aeon Jusco for almost a year and finally , it has opened - 19th December 2011 ( Monday) .Dad says first thing he is gonna buy a pair of walking shoes !

WE ARE GOING SHOPPING TOMORROW !!!!! WE ARE EATING AT AEON JUSCO TOMORROW !!!!! We will be searching for restaurants, food courts, and cafeterias soon ! WE ARE GOING TO ENJOY OURSELVES THERE ! Yippie ki ki la laaa !

By the way, I listen to Red Fm and I go for classes there every morning, the Red Breakfast Show at Red FM !

Journal Entry. =)D

I am currently called the radio girl or the office girl. The radio is my constant companian. And so is my precious, versatile office. I treasure these two items pretty much. There are my passport to fantasy and freedom. I love my jukebox, my stereo very much. I am stereo-hearted. "STEREO HEARTS" ~ Gym Class Heroes feat Adam Levine ! I love my personal computer. I love the LORD.

This is my fantasy picture of a TROPICAL PARADISE.

THIS IS MY HAPPINESS IN LIFE........! Aloha !

THROUGH GOD'S GRACE, HUMILIATION BECOMES.......HUMILITY ~ A State of Humbleness.

 I am alway  HUMBLE and full of humility with LAUGHTER.....

I've FOUND a JOB, I have started Working!!!!!! Success is a JOURNEY, not a Destination. The doing is often more important than the outcome.

I've graduated from building a HOUSE ~ my husband's house,with two kids!

I'VE GRADUATED FROM BUILDING A HOUSE - A MAN'S HOUSE CALLED HOME!!!!!!!

Journal Entry.

I'm waiting for a call. A confirmation call and the search for my department. I have found a JOB. I am going for training for three months and when I get confirmed, I will be transferred over here at my garden, Bandar Country Homes, Rawang where I will be working for the rest of my life or until the day I die. Praise be unto the Father in Heaven and unto GOD, and the Lord Jesus Christ!

I think I fare well. I have the utmost confidence, besides, they needed manpower and I am the means to provide for them with my knowledge and capacity. I heed my mother's call. It's about time I made a living for myself until the day I die. I have been resting for about a year and it has been far too long. Lethargy has taken over me and I have conquer it all. Thanks be to God.

I am waiting anxiously for a week and after the next week, I should know my status and my standing. I am waiting for my call. I am waiting for my call. Reminds me of a song....... I don't know the name or the title or is it I am waiting for my man, yucks!!!!!

I have enough of courtship and men. I have enough of sex life. I have enough of children. I have enough of raising a family and building a house. My two boys are in good hands. I am thinking of my life. I am thinking of my destiny . It is here in Country Homes where I will spend my time working. I have already changed my ic. I am here for good. Time will tell. Time changes everything. My thoughts and my feelings will never change. I am here for good. Good bye to love and welcome to work and destiny! My life. And my story.
Amen.

FemaleGo.com is a sex-finder. It is in Chinese.I can't read it. But it doesn't look darn too good. Why does the internet serves the purpose for illicit sex or unusual sex in the first place? A man must meet the requirements and then learn to interact with the opposite sex in order to meet with girls of all ages. Public social media can wreck a marriage or create havoc. There are too many secrets. Many are too dirty. I wouldn't want to be shuffled onto some dirty feet.=D

Try the website and you will find out. VERY DIRTY! Find a girl who can cook, can feed, can work with her own bare hands and feet and who can give birth - a CLEAN ONE! please.

I HAD SAVED ENOUGH MONEY TO RAISE MY FAMILY BY NOT SPENDING ALL MY MONEY ON CLOTHES ):

My Mom won't let me waste money on buying clothes because all of us had to eat and we put food on the table at all costs. I had many sets of old clothes that fits which I wear for the past ten years. I seldom spend my money on clothes. Most of it are spent on tit bits, snacks and crispy seaweed chips because my stomach gets hungry all the time and I had to keep watching my weight. The truth is, my mother controls my expenditure. She likes me to buy good food. I don't blame her for that as her heart's desire is seldom quenched. But she had money on the palm of her hands and she takes care of all of us her family well.

As for me, I will spend on my tit bits and snacks because I am getting old and looking good doesn't fits too much as people gets older they tend to grow fatter. So far I am not that fat. But if I were to reached OLD FOLKS AGE and preparing to collect my retirement fund, I've got to have white hair, quote an officer at the KWSP.=D

THIS IS AN EMO GOTH WITCH :) D

AN EMO GOTH WITCH AT STAKE..........

Date : 15 July 2011 (FRIDAY) at Aziah's house at 3/7 no. 51 MORNING TEA

FRIENDSHIP COUNTS :)
This morning I walked out to Aziah's house at the other lane because yesterday evening I did not see her out walking and taking a jog for exercise as usual. It was too early at 5pm , I didn't get to meet her as she went out at 6 pm, she told me later. Her house is also a bungaloo with lots of huge FENG SHUI fishes in an outside POND. I told her that "ONG" will arrive at her doorstep! She ushered me inside her house to have a morning breakfast of toast and coffee. Her cup and saucer were of terrific beautiful porcelain and I praised about their beauty to her. She was enchanted. Her toast was cut up into halves and she had apricot jam onto it. I thanked her for her kind hospitality and she insist that I eat it. She was wholehearted and cheerful, her daughter was onto her laptop and her son was by the table side, we chatted and 'sembang' and I keep thanking her for her kindness in serving me the huge cup of teh coffee. I had to make a move because I don't want to disturb or bother her for long but I told her about my quest at the Radio Renovation for a reward getaway at a resort in CyberJaya, or Kuala Trengganu or Perak. She says she listens to Red Fm too.Anyway I haven't received the phone call yet and I hope if all goes well, my father might agree and take us all four of us to a getaway resort at one of these places..:)

Journal Entry.

Everyday is a waiting period. Mom cooks everyday, all the time , whenever the stomach gets hungry. I will help my mother wash the dishes everyday until I get old as days go by. It seems that Mom never gets tired of cooking, instead she says she enjoys fulfilling the pain in the stomach, that is by eating, consuming food ! She has made into a routine-like job that she monotonously do out of the willingness of her heart. She is absolutely GOOD at it!!!

Apart from setting the table everyday, washing ,cleaning and mopping and sweeping as well as gardening, I am keeping busy with the internet. I pay my bills on time and so does my phone bills. I love keeping in touch with the NET. It serves to satisfy my soul and advance me into a state of freedom. The statue of Liberty is not hard to reach, just surf through the internet, you will find your soul's dream come true. I think I am getting pretty lonely in this days of summer, spring, autumn and winter. Especially in the winter,it gets really chilly, in the early wee hours of the morning and at dawn. I usually get up and switch off the fan as well as put on my sweater. I had gotten used to these days of confinement. I think Dad is going to live a RIPE old age. So I am not waiting for his death.

Next year, I might just change my life. I am getting ready for WORK outside. I have my mother's permission and she allows me freely to look for a job where the new building will be ready. My mother has plans for me to fulfill as well as managing my tender loving hands....

So far so Good. My life SHINES.  My children doesn't need me, my old fiancee is deeply enthralled by my majestic and my CHASTITY that he doesn't want to mend his sorrows!!!! Well, I don't need his condolence. I have my freedom and my American Dream!!  I am living the Australian way of lifestyle! LIVE TO WORK, WORK TO LIVE!!!!!!!

I am getting really well with my chastity. So far no one has touched me yet. And it seems it is going to stay this way. Mom is overjoyed at my chastity! She wanted me to be a spinster. She had already banished the thought of those naughty children out of her life! My children are VERY NAUGHTY. They have many of their pranks. Sometimes you have to forgive them as they are very naive and innocent. They are growing up children and their future lies absolutely speechless for them. I have my own sorrows to mend though. Never give up and never surrender. Pride in my strive!!!!!

I want to thank the Lord for everything that I had and I Praise Him Almighty on High!!!! Happy Father's Day.

This is my LOVE.......!

A Mother's LOVE is UNCONDITIONAL.........! It is beautifully EVERLASTING!!!! It is ETERNAL!

WHAT IS "LOVE"????MY DEFINITION AND WAYS OF LOVE.....!

LOVE IS SINCERE.......LOVE IS EMOTIONAL.......LOVE IS GIVING........LOVE IS SHARING.....!

YoonNam and I.

YoonNam and I had been friends for years. We went to Ungku Omar Polytechnic together, and she was in the Electrical and Engineering Department and I was in Accountancy. Everyweek, YoonNam would buy Brown Rice / Coarse Rice (the cheapest) and I would cook 'RICE' in the rice-cooker. At times,when the weather is hot, I would cook "porridge"/ broth/ 'chook'(in Cantonese) and we would eat with crispy ikan bilis which I fry in a hot pan. We got the ikan bilis and peeled out the shit or buy the expensive ones(peeled out shit) before we washed them and leave them to dry.

Sometimes I would buy a fish and goreng ikan. She (YoonNam) likes to eat HamYue (dry-salty fish) but I prefer a cancer-free one which is original.(Fry on my own). Sometimes, chicken porridge and sometimes chickenrice homemade(we followed our mother's style). I was in HOMESCIENCE and I took COOKERY CLUB and learn the art of cooking /boiling RICE. I changed to ARTS because I love to dance. I took up SIMPANKIRA and was TOP STUDENT in COMMERCE.

So I end up with YoonNam in Ipoh in the Year 1988 - 1989 and I graduated with honours/diploma. I furthered my studies by joining a student-exchange programme but YoonNam stayed behind to work as a technician (woman). Later she took up MODELING. I end up at Hamilton but YoonNam ended up in Universiti Sains Malaysia.Our path crossed and we met just a year ago.Bless be the Lord.

Above is a picture of her with me. God Bless Our Souls....

DUTY ROSTER ~ Cleaning the Toilet,Sweeping the Floor,.............

Cleaning the TOILET, sweeping the floor and washing the curtains and hanging up the curtains.Changing the bed-sheets and pillow-cases, Mopping The Floor.Hanging Up the Laundry. Doing household chores can be a boredom especially when the "ROOM" is NOT YOURS!!!!!! And you are NOT PAID!!!!! (I am not money-minded, but people are MOST CALCULATIVE these days!). I hate people who have bad-mouthed, CURSE or HIT others with their arms / hand in contempt!!!! (fight / revenge) Am I childish???? (You didn't do your work!!!!!)

Why don't you use some encouraging words instead? Some motivational words of wisdom since suffering comes in all sorts of prices. TALK NICELY. People will APPRECIATE and value your urge or UNDERSTOOD the IMPORTANCE of CLEANLINESS!

You don't even have to be paid. Talk or chat with courtesy and of family value and many people will understand the importance of Cleanliness, it's just they CAN'T SEE! They're Blind from the inside.
It's a daily ROUTINE. So what , if it's MY ROOM, I pay the price.

Beyoncé - Single Ladies (Put A Ring On It)

Put a Ring On It, I'm One Single Lady!

The Internet Is My Closest Companion!

The internet is like my companion,the internet is like my husband. I spend a whole lot of my days near the PC because firstly, it serves my budget, secondly a happy past-time, thirdly, fun and laughter and fourthly, games and money to be won, just in case you do Win!

I haven't won in any game shows yet, I haven't won in any contest yet and although I anticipated winning and gaming myself for it, my mother does not freely allow me the access of good showmanship although I've done my duties well. Well, You see, My parents are really, I mean absolutely "old-fashioned" and they are always CAUTIOUS on NOT BEEN TRICKED. "I have been cheated!" is the last thing they wanna hear, and I don't want to say it at all........

Hell, if I have FINALLY WON some stack of money and able to share it with them, I'm gonna say, "Hey, I WON in a CONTEST and here's the proof. Then I share a part of the money with them for they are gonna take me there personally to collect and maybe I could ask my father to be my representative, Just in case.

So, here's a show of good sportsmanship, after WINNING some money, just to say, I'm gonna take my Mom out and spend her on some FOOD!!! Just so to see her Smile........Adiioooos, I love gaming and winning as well. Makan besar!

Britney Spears - Hold It Against Me

Don't hold your Grudge Against Me, Hold your Body Against Me!

Hi, EveryBody's OUT, I'm all ALONE at HOME, Yeaaahhh!

Everyone's is OUT, I have the whole HOUSE All to MYSELF!! Yahhoooo!

I simply LOVE every minute of it!!!! The House is MINEEEEE.

Jessie J - Price Tag ft. B.o.B.

This is my Price-Tag ~ Advanced Freedom!

Come Next Month,it'll be a Year since I left home to return to Momma & Puppa!

I came home last year around in the middle of May 2010, and it's been about seven months that I've remain in my hometown....I've been keeping myself busy, and it hasn't been difficult to absorb the feelings of loneliness and longing for companionship. I do my homework regularly and help around the chores a lot, neat and tidy, true to my words..

I guess it's better than working my shit, and my ass off for a company who shames you to your skin, at least I get to enjoy my part of the game...Money don't come easily, and I used to have a lot of enemies instead of friends, in Malaysia, it is very easy to have enemies....still.

I maintained a stream of online internet friends, who doesn't terrify you with request for money, but only for words......I like my internet friends, they can't see my face when you're disgusted or being shamed...
This has been so much fun, I think my make-up has a problem with my face, true, but you don't put make-up nowadays.....Natural Beauty.

I working my shit and enjoying my ass. I'm getting a new package for my Streamyx and my internet package has been renewed....Traalaaa! Enjoying the full potential or the possibility of  Change!I have two more days of waiting, tomorrow is the last day to know who'll be going to the UK to see Taylor Swift LIVE  and who gets the last share of the RM20,000-00 in REDFM's facebook frenzy!

CONSCIENCE

Have I done enough on earth To make my life worth saving???? When adds the score, shall I be proud Of how I'm now behaving????? While lying on the beach sprawled, I can see the sky reflected, And wonder if there's any good In my life recollected.

I'll search my memory for some deeds To justify my living; And hope to find some actions that Will Merit God's forgiving.......( The picture above is a changing room / a toilet at the beach )

I have always LOVE the beaches in Malaysia.....

It is a wonderful day. This has been a good year, 2010. Year of the tiger. I hang tiger figurines by the Curry Leaf Tree which I planted for the past 12 years of raising daddy. The tree still stands tall and strong by the front porch of our once little house built on the sand. If we had built it standing on the rock,it would still have fall.

We had something like a honeymoon organized by the company, us one family with two kids and 6 other chosen families to holiday our lives by the shores of east Trengganu......Buffet everyday, 3 times a day, we buy lots of bread to stand by for tea and drank coffee by the coffee pot in our chalet. The Jacuzzi was real terrific. Our passion was truly aroused that night and in the three days that we stayed at Lang Tengah.

When we came home,from Redang Island, we resumed our normal preciding post and got on with our lives.....until one day.....something happened.


The kettle was still brewing with hot water to cater for our soulful needs and for the children's beverage
when my husband took off with the kids to his afterhalf's house.(I don't know who)

I went home by taxi to Mom and Dad's house to stay alert and had been here for six months........and it's already the New Year 2011.......!